April 08th, 2020

Ripped from Insta, there is no swiping unless you go there :(

It has been almost 2 years that I made an entry.
Just getting that out of the way in shame. 

The world has changed in 2020 with disaster after disaster in Australia and the world, Bushfires that last for months and floods and then the Corona virus/Covid-19 worldwide pandemic to name them. The world pretty much shut down and everyone has gone into hiding, afraid to go out and afraid to interact with one another. needless to say the entertainment and film industry stopped functioning, we can't even go to the cinema. Although my work in the acting and performing field has really gone down since allergies and coming back from Singapore (what I would give to live like that or that life again) it has become even worse when I can't even point cameras at other people (for work mind you). 

​One of the trends that picked up on FB is to post an image of yourself at work in entertainment, so naturally I went to this carcass of a blog site to look for something with me in my max element. But it just made me sad instead, Technically old links and images are dead, emotionally it all feels like it was a lifetime ago and not even relevant to me.
But Damn I had a pretty sweet blog. I feel like I was such a different person to now. I can mope about it but there is no point. I MISS THIS ME and remembering this life would have made hardly as much impact without this blog, so huge pat on the back for past me.

It's not just about never giving up. 
DO not fall for comfort and ignoring what should be driving you. 

I am not even in proper isolation, I work as a merchandiser and go to supermarkets every other day.
Even before this whole lock-down I only make enough to make ends meet and spoil myself every so more often than not with robots and camera gear, it's all been a distraction.
I'm sorry (to myself) but I don't have plans for you, and that I lost the serious drive, "being in Sydney breeds Mediocrity" (Russian Mike Kang 2020). I only can tell me that I believe in what I have done and I know what I am capable of, and this space is proof of that.

I am here to remind you; you are the real Jak Jacky and It's not just about never giving up.
Do not fall for comfort and ignore what should be driving you.